Hello, friends! Thank you so much for stopping by. As I head to Mayo Clinic early tomorrow morning, I ask that you pray with and for me on a few things:
This may seem like a no-brainer, but please pray for wisdom for Eric and myself as well as the doctors so that we all may know the proper course of action to take during this time. At the moment I'm planning on pushing for a colectomy sooner rather than later, but it's possible that the doctors won't want to do that right away, and I need to be okay with that - if that's the decision that's made. I don't anticipate that they will disagree about having a colectomy done right away, but I just want the right decisions to be made in the right time.
I know, I know. The age-old saying is never to pray for patience, but I'm going to anyway. I want my colon out as soon as possible, but it may be that I can't have it out for a while. Please pray that I will be patient enough to wait for that and not grumble the entire time. Please also pray that the doctors will be patient with me through my anxiety and fears (since it's Mayo I'm not really worried about that, but still... good to pray for), and that I'll be patient with the doctors even if I disagree with them.
I'm not sure yet what procedures I'll be going through in the next couple of days, but I'm guessing at least one of them will be an endoscopy. With my PSC (Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis), it's a more delicate process than normal because they have to navigate their way through the ducts of my liver, and maybe even clear the blockage that's there. It will definitely take some finesse on their part, so please pray for steady hands throughout everything (and pray for safety for whenever I have my colectomy).
This is a bold prayer that I have been praying for a while, and would love if you would join with me. I know that the Lord has His own purposes and He may very well choose not to heal me from these diseases but will allow me to walk through these difficult times, but I don't think it's wrong to pray that He will work a miracle in me. I know that He is fully capable of healing me (He is God, after all), but I also know that most often the Lord works in and through afflictions instead of taking us out of those trials. If He wants me to fully walk through this trial and this valley then I will, but I will still pray for healing, believing that He has every ability to do so. Please join me in this bold prayer.
Please, please, PLEASE pray for trust. If you don't pray anything else for me, please pray that Eric and I will trust that the Lord has us in the palm of His hand, and that He knows what He's doing. I'm not going to lie - I'm nervous about what the future holds, and I've had a difficult time coming to grips with the fact that the plans I had for my life are changing and I may not be able to do all the things I wanted to (at least not right now). Please pray that Eric and I will trust that whatever happens, the Lord is sovereign in all things.
Lastly, please pray for unity between Eric and me. All of this junk that's going on has really brought us closer together, but I know there are going to be days when we're both grumpy because of everything going on. Please pray that we will be unified in whatever decisions we have to make, that we will be able to clearly communicate with each other, and most importantly that we will put Christ at the center of every thought and every decision we make. Eric has already been so wonderful in continually pointing me to Christ, and I thank God for that. Please pray that we will both continue to do that in the future.
Thank you so much for your prayers, friends! They are deeply felt and greatly appreciated. Love all of you, and I will definitely keep everyone updated on what we find out from Mayo!
PS - A HUGE thank-you to Rick who sent me a really nice card yesterday. You have perfect timing! I definitely needed something right before Mayo. Miss our daily talks at Caribou as well!